On 28 October 2017 I moved into my house share on the Isle of Man. It was where the biggest change I’ve ever made in my life started, 3 years ago today. As I sit here typing this I’m filled with sadness, excitement and pride.
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I haven’t written anything for a while because I feel I’ve explained what I needed to and leaving my blog at 2 years later seemed a perfect way to end. I often wondered if anything would bring me back and whether I’d have anything to add to My Recovery So Far but I never dreamt it would be about dealing
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Last time I posted here I was still gutted and disappointed in myself about going out in Manchester and basically getting wasted. The anxiety I felt the day after was horrendous and I never want to feel that way again. It’s so frustrating knowing that you can drink in moderation but what I didn’t realise is, how important it is
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Basically, from 9th November until the 4th January, I’m not in the greatest head space. These are the dates that my Dad was diagnosed with a brain tumour and passed away. I really try my best to get involved with the festive season and I know there are always people much worse off but it’s still really difficult for me.
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Well, where do I start? I have to pinch myself sometimes. Never in a million years did I ever think I’d reach one year sober, but I have and I am so proud of myself. It’s not been easy, I’ve really struggled some days and I’ve had to make some drastic changes but every single one has been worth it.
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The picture above reminds me of waking up one morning with the bed covered in blood, my hand throbbing with pain and the worst hangover ever. The evening before I’d got so drunk I couldn’t remember what I’d done and I still can’t – I’ll never know. That day I spent over 4 hours in A&E on the Isle of
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Not many people really know about my struggles with anxiety because I’ve always found it difficult to talk about. In fact, I’ve been embarrassed to talk about it a lot of the time. It’s only recently that I’ve realised how common anxiety disorders are. For years anxiety was ruling my life without me even knowing it.
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We’ve been back a couple of weeks now but I wanted to write about our trip because it was just what I needed and we had such a lovely time. My mum and Mick are always off on some kind of jolly and they decided to book this and ask me to tag along. Staying 3 night’s in The Lake
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After a very up and down few weeks, I’m back! The Isle of Man is an amazing place and I’m extremely grateful to have had the opportunity to live and work there over the last year. I’ll always go back and the island will always have a special place in my heart as it’s the place that helped me turn
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Although I do love my own company being on the island and not knowing many people has started to make me feel really lonely. I’ve been going back home nearly every weekend and craving time with my friends and family. This also became apparent when I started dating a couple of months ago. Although we had a great time together
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Before I start let’s just take a moment to celebrate England’s 6-1 victory today. Oh yes, what a match! If we keep playing like that we’ll be doing alright. Maybe it was because I wore my lucky shirt today? So, back to me being rich. I’m not motivated by money and I find it quite sad when people tell me
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It seems ages ago now but I went home for a couple of weeks at the beginning of the month. It was my 39th birthday and I’d actually booked a holiday but decided to cancel and be around my family and friends instead. I didn’t know how I’d feel with the no drinking whilst away at a holiday destination so
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As the tag line says on this site “sobriety delivers everything alcohol promised”. That is very true but getting sober has actually brought a lot more to my life than I originally expected. Obviously, I knew I’d feel better sober but the main thing I wanted in the early days was to stop feeling depressed, anxious, worried and constantly knackered.
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It’s Saturday afternoon and I’m in Costa again. Although many of you know I do love Costa it’s getting a bit ridiculous now. It’s a regular routine and each day is pretty much like the title of this post. Monday to Friday it’s work, gym, tea, blogging or Netflix then bed. Saturday it’s usually think of a plan for the
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I’m sure most of you are aware that last week approximately 40000 runners took to the streets of London to compete in the marathon. Unfortunately Matt Campbell didn’t manage to finish and sadly died – full story. There’s a hash tag doing the rounds where people are running 3.7 miles to #FinishForMatt as that’s how far he was from completing
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