7 weeks later …
Hello again. I haven’t been into the blogging recently as there’s been a lot going on. Sometimes I’m just not feeling it and to be quite honest, I couldn’t be bothered! Ooops. Anyway, here’s an update on what I’ve been up to.
Drinking in moderation is going very well! I’m having a glass of wine, sometimes two with a meal and I’ve stopped at that over the last few weeks. I’ve been tracking my alcohol consumption with the Drinkaware app as I’m very aware how addiction can rear its ugly head and it’s important to me that I don’t lose focus. I think I’ll probably keep tracking via the app for the rest of the year. Staying sober for 14 months changed my life and I’m finally able to enjoy alcohol in the correct way. Some said I couldn’t do it but if you want something enough, it’s possible to achieve. I’m well aware it’s still early days but I’m convinced I will be successful at long term moderation. I’ve surprised myself actually because I’m not that interested in alcohol half as much as I thought I would be. Don’t get me wrong, I still have to stay focused and the usual ‘trigger moments’ still occur but I’m a lot more aware of them now and when they’re likely to happen:-
- Sun’s out = trigger time
- Invited to a party = trigger time
- Travelling = trigger time
- It’s the weekend = trigger time
I know a lot of people will relate to the above but once you learn to accept that these triggers are going to happen, you can prepare for them and they’re not so much of a surprise to deal with.
Here are my Drinkaware figures for the last few weeks. As you can see I started off risky and gradually got a grip. At the end of February I decided to get a bottle of wine for at home but I won’t be doing that again. I didn’t really enjoy it and only drank it because it was there. I’m not quite at the point where I can throw good wine away!
In other news, I got offered a new job! But, I’ve decided not to take it as my boss offered me a deal I couldn’t really say no to. Well, I could but I’d have been stupid to. He’s a great boss and we get on brilliantly. There’s a lot to be said for enjoying where you work and I’ve never enjoyed working somewhere as much. I applied for the new job as I’m now back in Huddersfield. In fact, I moved to my new home yesterday. I was happy here for 7 years until the final 3 years and that’s when my drinking got out of hand. Anyway, now I’m a lot more sorted, I’ve decided to come back and it’ll be great to catch up with everyone. I’m excited for another new start! I went for a walk this morning and my trusty FitBit tells me that this amazing view is approx. 1000 steps away from my doorstep …
Then there’s my love life. Oh boy! It’s going well, for now. When I say “now”, I mean right this minute. But this is me and that could all change in the next few hours! Joking aside, JT is amazing and we’ve been having a great time together. It’s not always hunky-dory but which relationships are?! JT is taking me to Gran Canaria for my 40th and I’m feeling so lucky right now. We’re making plans and 2019 is turning out to be a great year so far, although I’m not really sure how I feel about turning 40 in a few weeks!
Thanks for reading and have a fabulous week!