On 28 October 2017 I moved into my house share on the Isle of Man. It was where the biggest change I’ve ever made in my life started, 3 years ago today. As I sit here typing this I’m filled with sadness, excitement and pride.
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I haven’t written anything for a while because I feel I’ve explained what I needed to and leaving my blog at 2 years later seemed a perfect way to end. I often wondered if anything would bring me back and whether I’d have anything to add to My Recovery So Far but I never dreamt it would be about dealing
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There’s nothing quite like a new Chromebook to get you in the mood for writing another blog post. But I’ll be honest, it’s probably a whiny, self obsessed negative one that you’ll wish you hadn’t read. Overall my life is pretty sorted right now but me being me I still have my moments and as it stands I’m feeling pretty
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Last time I posted here I was still gutted and disappointed in myself about going out in Manchester and basically getting wasted. The anxiety I felt the day after was horrendous and I never want to feel that way again. It’s so frustrating knowing that you can drink in moderation but what I didn’t realise is, how important it is
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I deliberately haven’t written anything here for a while to give myself some space to decide which direction I want my recovery to go in. I’ve been practising moderation since Christmas and more often than not, it has gone to plan. There have been many occasions where I’ve gone for a meal with JT and just had a glass of
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I’ve started running again. I was training for a half marathon last year but I had to drop out because of a problem with my hip/leg. To be honest, I still don’t know what the problem was but with some decent stretching and sticking to short runs I seem to be fine. I’m nowhere near as fit as I was
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Isn’t it strange when I start writing again I get my mojo back?! Two posts in two days. You’re very lucky! 😉 Anybody who knows me well, will tell you I’m a massive overthinker. Seriously, I analyse the shit out of everything. My daily life, my work, my finances, my future. Every part of my life, I overthink and if
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I’ve been wanting to write another post for a few weeks but struggling with where to start and what to write as I’ve got lots to say about different things. More issues than Vogue, I tell ya! Let’s begin with the drinking in moderation. It’s not gone great, it’s not been disastrous but the occasions where it’s not gone to
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Yesterday I hit 14 months sober and I started My Recovery So Far about this time last year. Over the last twelve months this blog has been one of the biggest parts of my life. I started writing for cathartic reasons when I hit rock bottom and putting everything down here has kept me on track and helped me turn
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So, the weekend before last I posted on social media that I didn’t want to be sober forever. That is true but I probably need to clear a few things up. I am still very much ON the wagon and today marks 1 year and 1 month of sobriety. When I say I don’t want to be sober forever that
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It’s 0130 and I can’t sleep. I’ve got that many thoughts and ideas running around in my head and I’m really unsettled. I’ve been struggling for a few weeks with different life stuff. Work, relationship, money, etc… The doctor signed me off with stress and I’m about to go into my 3rd week of being away from work. Obviously I’m
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Well, where do I start? I have to pinch myself sometimes. Never in a million years did I ever think I’d reach one year sober, but I have and I am so proud of myself. It’s not been easy, I’ve really struggled some days and I’ve had to make some drastic changes but every single one has been worth it.
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The picture above reminds me of waking up one morning with the bed covered in blood, my hand throbbing with pain and the worst hangover ever. The evening before I’d got so drunk I couldn’t remember what I’d done and I still can’t – I’ll never know. That day I spent over 4 hours in A&E on the Isle of
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Not many people really know about my struggles with anxiety because I’ve always found it difficult to talk about. In fact, I’ve been embarrassed to talk about it a lot of the time. It’s only recently that I’ve realised how common anxiety disorders are. For years anxiety was ruling my life without me even knowing it.
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After a very up and down few weeks, I’m back! The Isle of Man is an amazing place and I’m extremely grateful to have had the opportunity to live and work there over the last year. I’ll always go back and the island will always have a special place in my heart as it’s the place that helped me turn
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