On 28 October 2017 I moved into my house share on the Isle of Man. It was where the biggest change I’ve ever made in my life started, 3 years ago today. As I sit here typing this I’m filled with sadness, excitement and pride.
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I haven’t written anything for a while because I feel I’ve explained what I needed to and leaving my blog at 2 years later seemed a perfect way to end. I often wondered if anything would bring me back and whether I’d have anything to add to My Recovery So Far but I never dreamt it would be about dealing
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Last time I posted here I was still gutted and disappointed in myself about going out in Manchester and basically getting wasted. The anxiety I felt the day after was horrendous and I never want to feel that way again. It’s so frustrating knowing that you can drink in moderation but what I didn’t realise is, how important it is
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I’ve started running again. I was training for a half marathon last year but I had to drop out because of a problem with my hip/leg. To be honest, I still don’t know what the problem was but with some decent stretching and sticking to short runs I seem to be fine. I’m nowhere near as fit as I was
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So, the weekend before last I posted on social media that I didn’t want to be sober forever. That is true but I probably need to clear a few things up. I am still very much ON the wagon and today marks 1 year and 1 month of sobriety. When I say I don’t want to be sober forever that
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It’s 0130 and I can’t sleep. I’ve got that many thoughts and ideas running around in my head and I’m really unsettled. I’ve been struggling for a few weeks with different life stuff. Work, relationship, money, etc… The doctor signed me off with stress and I’m about to go into my 3rd week of being away from work. Obviously I’m
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Well, where do I start? I have to pinch myself sometimes. Never in a million years did I ever think I’d reach one year sober, but I have and I am so proud of myself. It’s not been easy, I’ve really struggled some days and I’ve had to make some drastic changes but every single one has been worth it.
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After a very up and down few weeks, I’m back! The Isle of Man is an amazing place and I’m extremely grateful to have had the opportunity to live and work there over the last year. I’ll always go back and the island will always have a special place in my heart as it’s the place that helped me turn
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It seems ages ago now but I went home for a couple of weeks at the beginning of the month. It was my 39th birthday and I’d actually booked a holiday but decided to cancel and be around my family and friends instead. I didn’t know how I’d feel with the no drinking whilst away at a holiday destination so
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I’m sure most of you are aware that last week approximately 40000 runners took to the streets of London to compete in the marathon. Unfortunately Matt Campbell didn’t manage to finish and sadly died – full story. There’s a hash tag doing the rounds where people are running 3.7 miles to #FinishForMatt as that’s how far he was from completing
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Yesterday I felt like the worst friend in the world. I should be on the boat to Liverpool now but I’ve decided not to make the journey for Graham’s funeral on Monday. It definitely wasn’t an easy decision to make. In fact I’ve been thinking about it all week and had several discussions with friends and family. Losing Graham has
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I’m in rant mode so be warned… The half marathon training is going well so far. Not that I know much about running but I think it is anyway, haha! I’m using one of Bupa’s training plans as it’s the only one I’ve found that doesn’t involve going to the gym. Now I know I should go to the gym
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Hello again 🙂 Sorry I haven’t posted in a while but I just haven’t been in the mood. Well, that and I’ve been too busy. I went home for a week to catch up with everyone and get away from the island life – I was feeling claustrophobic. I’m so lucky to have such amazing friends and family and it
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