On 28 October 2017 I moved into my house share on the Isle of Man. It was where the biggest change I’ve ever made in my life started, 3 years ago today. As I sit here typing this I’m filled with sadness, excitement and pride.
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There’s nothing quite like a new Chromebook to get you in the mood for writing another blog post. But I’ll be honest, it’s probably a whiny, self obsessed negative one that you’ll wish you hadn’t read. Overall my life is pretty sorted right now but me being me I still have my moments and as it stands I’m feeling pretty
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Last time I posted here I was still gutted and disappointed in myself about going out in Manchester and basically getting wasted. The anxiety I felt the day after was horrendous and I never want to feel that way again. It’s so frustrating knowing that you can drink in moderation but what I didn’t realise is, how important it is
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I deliberately haven’t written anything here for a while to give myself some space to decide which direction I want my recovery to go in. I’ve been practising moderation since Christmas and more often than not, it has gone to plan. There have been many occasions where I’ve gone for a meal with JT and just had a glass of
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I’ve been wanting to write another post for a few weeks but struggling with where to start and what to write as I’ve got lots to say about different things. More issues than Vogue, I tell ya! Let’s begin with the drinking in moderation. It’s not gone great, it’s not been disastrous but the occasions where it’s not gone to
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Yesterday I hit 14 months sober and I started My Recovery So Far about this time last year. Over the last twelve months this blog has been one of the biggest parts of my life. I started writing for cathartic reasons when I hit rock bottom and putting everything down here has kept me on track and helped me turn
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It’s 0130 and I can’t sleep. I’ve got that many thoughts and ideas running around in my head and I’m really unsettled. I’ve been struggling for a few weeks with different life stuff. Work, relationship, money, etc… The doctor signed me off with stress and I’m about to go into my 3rd week of being away from work. Obviously I’m
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Well, where do I start? I have to pinch myself sometimes. Never in a million years did I ever think I’d reach one year sober, but I have and I am so proud of myself. It’s not been easy, I’ve really struggled some days and I’ve had to make some drastic changes but every single one has been worth it.
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The picture above reminds me of waking up one morning with the bed covered in blood, my hand throbbing with pain and the worst hangover ever. The evening before I’d got so drunk I couldn’t remember what I’d done and I still can’t – I’ll never know. That day I spent over 4 hours in A&E on the Isle of
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Not many people really know about my struggles with anxiety because I’ve always found it difficult to talk about. In fact, I’ve been embarrassed to talk about it a lot of the time. It’s only recently that I’ve realised how common anxiety disorders are. For years anxiety was ruling my life without me even knowing it.
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Before I start let’s just take a moment to celebrate England’s 6-1 victory today. Oh yes, what a match! If we keep playing like that we’ll be doing alright. Maybe it was because I wore my lucky shirt today? So, back to me being rich. I’m not motivated by money and I find it quite sad when people tell me
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There’s very few occasions that drinking did make me genuinely happy. At the time I thought I was happy and enjoying myself but now I realise that a lot of the time I was drinking at home and not really enjoying it. There was even times when I was out with friends and I wasn’t enjoying myself that much to
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As the tag line says on this site “sobriety delivers everything alcohol promised”. That is very true but getting sober has actually brought a lot more to my life than I originally expected. Obviously, I knew I’d feel better sober but the main thing I wanted in the early days was to stop feeling depressed, anxious, worried and constantly knackered.
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It’s Saturday afternoon and I’m in Costa again. Although many of you know I do love Costa it’s getting a bit ridiculous now. It’s a regular routine and each day is pretty much like the title of this post. Monday to Friday it’s work, gym, tea, blogging or Netflix then bed. Saturday it’s usually think of a plan for the
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When I first started out on my recovery journey I remember saying to my mum “how great would it be if I got to 100 days sober?”. I’m absolutely thrilled and so proud of myself that I’ve managed to double that. I am 200 days SOBERI am 200 days HAPPIERI am 200 days RICHERI am 200 days HEALTHIERI am 200
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