On 28 October 2017 I moved into my house share on the Isle of Man. It was where the biggest change I’ve ever made in my life started, 3 years ago today. As I sit here typing this I’m filled with sadness, excitement and pride.
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As many of you will know, this is my second time of hitting the 50 days sober milestone. I’m back on the wagon, and this time is different. I’m staying sober knowing it’s what I want and I don’t have the ‘can I moderate/should I moderate’ hanging over me.
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I haven’t written anything for a while because I feel I’ve explained what I needed to and leaving my blog at 2 years later seemed a perfect way to end. I often wondered if anything would bring me back and whether I’d have anything to add to My Recovery So Far but I never dreamt it would be about dealing
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There’s nothing quite like a new Chromebook to get you in the mood for writing another blog post. But I’ll be honest, it’s probably a whiny, self obsessed negative one that you’ll wish you hadn’t read. Overall my life is pretty sorted right now but me being me I still have my moments and as it stands I’m feeling pretty
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Last time I posted here I was still gutted and disappointed in myself about going out in Manchester and basically getting wasted. The anxiety I felt the day after was horrendous and I never want to feel that way again. It’s so frustrating knowing that you can drink in moderation but what I didn’t realise is, how important it is
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I deliberately haven’t written anything here for a while to give myself some space to decide which direction I want my recovery to go in. I’ve been practising moderation since Christmas and more often than not, it has gone to plan. There have been many occasions where I’ve gone for a meal with JT and just had a glass of
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I’ve started running again. I was training for a half marathon last year but I had to drop out because of a problem with my hip/leg. To be honest, I still don’t know what the problem was but with some decent stretching and sticking to short runs I seem to be fine. I’m nowhere near as fit as I was
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Yesterday I hit 14 months sober and I started My Recovery So Far about this time last year. Over the last twelve months this blog has been one of the biggest parts of my life. I started writing for cathartic reasons when I hit rock bottom and putting everything down here has kept me on track and helped me turn
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So, the weekend before last I posted on social media that I didn’t want to be sober forever. That is true but I probably need to clear a few things up. I am still very much ON the wagon and today marks 1 year and 1 month of sobriety. When I say I don’t want to be sober forever that
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Well, where do I start? I have to pinch myself sometimes. Never in a million years did I ever think I’d reach one year sober, but I have and I am so proud of myself. It’s not been easy, I’ve really struggled some days and I’ve had to make some drastic changes but every single one has been worth it.
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The picture above reminds me of waking up one morning with the bed covered in blood, my hand throbbing with pain and the worst hangover ever. The evening before I’d got so drunk I couldn’t remember what I’d done and I still can’t – I’ll never know. That day I spent over 4 hours in A&E on the Isle of
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Not many people really know about my struggles with anxiety because I’ve always found it difficult to talk about. In fact, I’ve been embarrassed to talk about it a lot of the time. It’s only recently that I’ve realised how common anxiety disorders are. For years anxiety was ruling my life without me even knowing it.
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I’ve lost count but I’m probably on about my fourth Facebook account now. Many reasons have made me want to delete it but it’s usually down to relationship breakups and not wanting to trawl through all the pictures we had took together which drags up the past and reminds me of the wonderful memories rather than the shitty ones which
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I used to hate the saying “I’m on a journey”, in the same way I hate all those corporate ‘buzz words’. It’s basically people kissing arse to climb the ladder in a sickening desperate way. Hit the ground running – usually has me rolling my eyes 🙄 Can I borrow you for a second? – no, but you can talk
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After a very up and down few weeks, I’m back! The Isle of Man is an amazing place and I’m extremely grateful to have had the opportunity to live and work there over the last year. I’ll always go back and the island will always have a special place in my heart as it’s the place that helped me turn
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